Function

 I haven't been able to function properly this couple of weeks. I feel like zombie, only full with emotions. This covid situation just taxing me so hard. After my parents were positive with Covid (thankfully they recovered very quickly), my aunt - the closest one to me - passed away due to the same disease. She had asthma. I went spiraling into sadness. The fact that i cannot do more for her, I feel so helpless. 

This week, I received the news that my sister and her husband are also positive. I went to sleep every time wondering if I will have other bad news, and I just felt so, so, heavy. So today, I just stop and telling myself that it is okay if I am not functioning that well. It is okay to grieve, to feel heavy. It is okay.